This blog lacks a lot of depth on the Civil Engineering aspects. I admit, I have not done much in school besides learning properties and methods that will help me engineer solutions to civilization’s problems and build new and unique things. It’s nothing. Okay, that’s a lot. Honestly, it’s a bit different from my Catholic mindset, where I talk about my faith. It’s the day-to-day behind the scenes work that doesn’t get the spotlight. It’s a whole different world. One of the things I believe is whatever I do has a purpose and should be congruent with my beliefs. I believe that in helping to design and build new things provides a service to the community. So today, I wanted to delve into an experience that helped me better understand construction and how a construction site operates.
Dear world, it’s 2018. I realize one of my biggest mistakes of my life is that I desire places that God doesn’t want me to go. I desire things that were never meant to be for me. I wanted to be at SLS ’18 in Chicago which is going on as I write, but here I am at home in Texas. I can’t go due to cost, logistics, etc. I wanted be to part of UT’s marching band, Longhorn Band this past August. I tried out, but I didn’t make it. I wanted to go a summer camp just to visit my friend who worked there. I joked around about it, but it never happened. I wanted to be an architect. I had to change my major when I didn’t have the skills to be what I wanted. These are not inheritably bad things I desire. I could learn a lot in these experiences that I desire. I could have opportunities to grow in faith through some of these experiences I desire. Lots of these things are didn’t happen for me. That makes me feel uneasy. Upset. Depressed. Left out. Why do I want to be where God has already decided that I should never be? Continue reading “Desire: How I Know What God’s Will is for Me”→
Short blog. There are a lot of topics that I could blog about, but my current ideas feel a bit forced, as I tend to see things in a way that what they actually are or at least appear to be is not what I’m saying. That makes me a skeptic, something I don’t what not to be, at least this early in the blog game. So one request for readers, comment any topics you want me to talk about using “TR: (topic request)”. I will be doing Q & A ‘s soon, but it would be for at least a month. For questions “Q: Question” You can also do this on my twitter @Badsay34, and facebook ,https://www.facebook.com/pages/ABCs-of-My-Life/143738565688001?ref=hl.
Sometimes I forget this is a blog about my life. So I’m going to share with you some of my Franklin Barbecue I got this weekend, instantly. 6 hours for me, 0 hours for you. Oh wait… it is all gone. And the internet doesn’t work that way… Oh well, pictures are the next best thing.
. Yes I have some friends, and they saw that my hopes and dreams were satisfied with the BBQ. Too good to be true, y’all.
In a couple weeks, expect a post about Ignite Texas, a camp I truly love. Until then, I will just leave this here, for freshman and transfers going to University of Texas at Austin this year. Check it out! I will be at Session One as a counselor, but Session Two needs more campers. Ignite link. It is cheaper and longer than Camp Texas,which means it is so much more worth it. (Please note the experiences are totally different, as I have gone to both as a freshman. Ignite has a more fun, Christ-centered agenda, Camp Texas just has a “Here is UT, meet some people, have some fun.” agenda.) Thanks, y’all.
I am greatly sorry for the late post, I went home, and I didn’t plan for this post in advance that much. Here you go.
I love to create things. I like to exercise my creative spirit in many different ways: music, writing, poetry, Youtube videos, and art. I fell in love with the world of architecture, as I thought it would be a successful way to express my creativity for the future. Lately, I have been looking at many of my creative exports, and trying to understand why I create, who I am. I have noticed a lot of things, such as music and writing stories, is unfinished, low quality, and feels unsatisfying. I will explain my love of architecture, and why I first felt compelled to do it, but also understand my faults for such a career.
I love architecture. It is the most versatile art form. It is a critical part of how we live, where we live, and what we do. One of the main reasons I like architecture is due to an architecture class at University of Texas, Architecture and Society, taught by Mr. Larry Speck. When I first started architecture, I thought, I can learn how to build houses, help all my friends with their dream houses, and be productive. I was wrong. It was much more than just buildings, but buildings that suit the area it was built, the people that inhabit and utilize the buildings, and the beauty behind such a building. I studied many buildings, including the Centre Pompidou in Paris, France. This colorful building was meant to be open, exposed, and show the complex character in contrast on the older surrounding buildings. Another building I actually saw and wrote about was St. Mary’s Chapel in downtown Austin. I actually decided to go to mass, and it was quite beautiful. The mass felt natural and glorious there compared to some other plainer-looking churches, in which do not have the same atmosphere.
That class gave me first insight into how architecture affected people, and gave me a better reason to pursue architecture than just a creative way to express myself, for the people. I had other studio classes, where I was learning how to do my job as an architect, how to design, how to make buildings beautiful and useful in the real world. The problem with these studio classes was that I was not very good. It was obvious at first, but became more obvious as the year went on.
I had many faults in my studio classes. I wasn’t crafty. I could make a model, but it was not good quality. There were minor misjudgements that added up and never went away. My ideas were not very good. I could not think outside the box very much, and was not initially open to the idea of “no wrong answers, just better or worse.” Finally I could not communicate my ideas in presentation. I did put in a lot of time and effort, but it just was not making sense. I played around with different ideas without ultimately realizing what they do to the design, and communicating those ideas and their purpose was hard for me. These faults ultimately lead for me to drop out of my second studio class, leaving me behind a year. They also made me question whether to change my major to Architecture Engineering or stay in Architecture.
I tried to understand what was so difficult about my creativity. I looked at my videos, music and other creative exports over the years, and I realize many of them are unfinished. Some of them, I even know I could never finish now because my ideas and mindset are different. I also noticed that a lot of it was aided by computers, as that somehow made the process easier, but didn’t allow for the greatest potential final product or learning experience. In some cases, computers can be eliminated as in architecture, others not so much, as in videos. Either way, the way I expressed my creativity was made easier through overuse shortcuts to heighten the quality, but decrease the effort and experience. Otherwise, I was pretty mediocre in all creative efforts, but I loved and had potential in all of them.
As I go in in my major, I am now wanting to transfer see if engineering would fit my nature, as it has more rules, formulas, and right answers, compared to creativity in architecture. Creativity in engineering comes from what you have and know, and is more systematic than architecture. Sure, it may be a bit harder and more boring, but if it fits my way of thinking better, so be it.