Things have changed. I lost track of my time and this blog has gone to waste. Another semester at UT Austin done. My life has been in constant flux, and I have been too busy from schoolwork to finals to remember I have a blog to keep up. I always drop something when I’m too busy, this is the first to go. I know that not many people read this blog, so it seems as a pointless exercise in explaining my opinion and my viewpoint and not much about my life or myself. I don’t want to be selfish. I do love myself, but I know who I am comes from God. My belief in God has been a crucial part of my life.
The thing is I have a summer in front of me. I am not who I was the summer before. I was uncertain of the future, just a kid trying to be an adult. I had to take a summer Physics course at UT, so I had subleased part of a two-bedroom apartment. I was alone. I had some friends and formed a study group, but I felt alone. Maybe it was the fact I was the only person in the apartment for two months. Maybe because I don’t have constant contact with friends outside of school. Maybe I listened to “I Live Alone” by Sky Sailing too much. Whatever it was, it was a learning experience. I kept myself busy with my first job at Whataburger, (you gotta start somewhere.)
That’s what I tell myself now. I have now a better summer. I am home in Houston for the
summer. I took a job at the new waterpark, Typhoon Texas. I am starting another Physics class at Lonestar College Cyfair. I hope to finally get my driver’s license.( Never found the time to finish Driver’s ed when I was in school.) The reason I look back to then because I went through all of that and where I am now seems more comfortable than last year. I think things have changing. I am ch
anging my major to Civil Engineering.
When I entered Architecture at UT, I could not stand the workload, and have the technical skill my classmates all seemed to have. My creativity worked by math, patterns, and formats. In architecture I had to translate my artistic visions into physical and spatial reality via scale models, hand-drawings, and my vocal presentation. I failed to understand what I was even doing. No architect is perfect, but I could not be successful in a field that I can’t do. I wanted to transfer to Architectural Engineering. This took a a long journey of extra year just taking core courses I needed to transfer, barely raising my GPA because I had to balance class, my social life, and my extracurricular activities. I applied in April to transfer to Architectural Engineering, and put Civil Engineering as my back-up. I was denied into Architectural Engineering, and entered into Civil Engineering.
Now, I must it face every aspect of my life as a gift from God and understand it may not be what I want, but what is best. Why don’t I want what’s best for me? I guess it’s because God knows me better, and I’m a foolish human. I must trust in Him, so to assure this summer, every season is good for me. I’m learned last summer to face with what’s been given, and I must continue to trust.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, on your own intelligence do not rely; In all your ways be mindful of him, and he will make straight your paths.”
-Proverbs 3:5-6 NAB